I didn’t really feel aware that I was dreaming in any of my dreams. Could I have been lucid during the first dream even though I felt like I was just dreaming about doing reality checks & not doing them consciously to become aware in my dream? I guess I'm thinking that if I become lucid, I will definitely know it
Yes if you become lucid you should definitely know it, its amazing. It does sound to me that cause you have programmed into your mind these reality checks that you are now dreaming them (which is supposed to happen) but unfortunately in your case they have failed to make you become lucid when you dream them.
This may not be a good thing as it could mean this method has failed you seeing you arent becoming aware with this kind of reality check even when it shows you are dreaming. Dont jump to that conclusion just yet that its not going to happen as maybe it still will next time became aware when the reality check tries to show you are dreaming, give yourself a few more chances for your awareness to kick in while doing these things but if it doesnt, it will mean need to try a different method as this isnt working for you(eg WILD or something else where you dont need to reality check, if you cant gain awareness by reality checks).
I suggest to add to what you are doing now which could help make you come to the dreaming realisation the following. Look around yourself at times and asking yourself the question "Is there anything strange/weird here which shows Im dreaming?", then study the environment you are in. Hopefully you will notice something that strange or exciting to see that your waking consciousness can suddenly come in and go "wow, this must be a dream".
The 2 reality checks which failed with you, I suggest not to do those ones again (as they are likely to fail again).. stick with the 2 which worked for you (pushing on glass and the breathing one) . Dont be disappointed as even finding out what doesnt work for you, is one more step towards trying to work out what will and does.
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