I had a hardcore southern Pentecostal upbringing, thankfully my mother got out of that while I was still in high school. Yet my family and I are very connected and spiritually aware because of that. The thing that got me into all this lucid dreaming was two years ago I was in a coma for 10 days (when I awoke I was paralyzed though my nerves grew back I had to learn to walk again so lots of PT and my brain was basically goop) In my coma I remember looking down at my body on a table and doctors were shoving something down my throat I screamed for them to stop but they wouldn't. The thing they were shoving down my throat happened to be a ventilator it hurt like hell and damaged me badly. I was 17 when this happened. Through hard work I managed to graduate high school and move 5 hours away from home for college. I actually became very unspiritual after this. I was atheist and very angry at the world. it stayed that way until I was 19 and started hanging out with all these dirty hippies and decided to go to school for massage. At massage school I studied polarity. Polarity is my favorite and I would like to strengthen my knowledge in that. Up until just recently I had never remembered any of my dreams, except foggy memories of dreams I had in polarity sessions in school. My Friend recently told me to tell myself before I go to bed to remember every time I lay my hand down on a surface in my dream. I did that and ever since I've been crazy dreaming. The first one I was waking children up in their dream because they were in comas. The last dream I had, had a lot of my personal life in it and it was rewarding on level where I got to be with people I can't be with right now. However through the dream I was trying to find someone, someone who was in my dream last night. I with other people in my dream were trying to find him because he's a murder. This is all very odd. Its a person I've never met but he keeps showing up in my dream. I keep on wanting to cry thinking about it. When I awoke from this dream I was still exhausted and just had the feeling of fear going through my entire body. I have still yet to be able to fully become conscious in my dream. so thats something I'm working on. So yeah.
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