I've tried to analyze this, and I might think I don't have enough will power when I become lucid, or I atleast fall back into sleep when becoming lucid. In my dreams, when I become lucid (I've only tried it two times), I don't seem to have the will power to tell myself to look at my hand. In my last lucid experience, I could feel my hands rubbing together, BUT I didn't look down at my hands a single time. I wanted to, but I didn't. It's like when you have minimal control, but is still aware? Maybe I couldn't see my hands in my dream because the dream were all shining with extreme light? That could play a factor too. I just need some help to maybe find out if I'm like not completely lucid, or if I just dont have the will power to demand myself in my dream to look at my hand.
"If I only could see you in my dreams, I would sleep all the time!" <3