LDer Charles wrote:I'm not sure if your situation is anything like that but I really want to thank you because you raising my awareness of how those harsh inner voices still operate
So I want to thank you so much because until I read your post I was so blind to my own inner critic beating me up every time I forgot a dream.
Oh dang, no problem man
I've been trying my hardest with combatting the self-judgement myself but i'm just barely fending it off as of now. I stay very conscious about almost all of my situations when it comes to emotional and mental stuff, but i'm kind of stuck as a spectator while my psyche kicks itself to a pulp, and it feels terrible. This is only when I don't have much choice on the situation though, cause apparently for a 16-year old I have a lot of self-control. I have high-functioning Autism (Aspergers) and I had to learn how to control myself; only in the last few years i've been able to actually get a hold of it, but doing so doesn't stop it from bucking. My situation is actually surprisingly similar to yours; I tend to exacerbate the situation to the point I panic and then beat myself up over the terrible results. Unlike you though, i've actually been conscious of the problem for as long as I can remember. It honestly sucks that i'm so stuck in my own mind and don't have as much control as I should- when I barely have any, even just answering a yes or no question or getting up from a chair can prove annoyingly difficult because of how stupidly powerful this inner voice is. My mind is still developing and i'm not even out of puberty yet, so it's probably a lot harder to maintain a stable mind than it should be. I'm glad I was able to help you realize how harsh your inner voices still are, it makes me feel happy that I was able to benefit your life in some way or another
Also, thanks about my profile picture, I only made it in about 10 seconds but I guess it works good enough