DesertExplorer wrote:It's OK. I didn't want to confuse you guys. Sorry for that one. Just a thought in my mind.
Doesn't this forum let you to delete your account?
Anyway, nesgirl I cannot actually believe that someone agreed to get you banned even if you asked them to. There is no need to do that, anyway. You are a great user. I don't really get what happened but you can just ignore it and keep being active in what you want to in here. I don't understand why you say you don't belong in this world, cause I don't know you in person, but I'm sure as hell you belong in the forum, so please stay. You shouldn't even think to go.
Unfortunately no. However there are 2 ways of no longer living on this forum
The first way is being banned. However your records and your posts are still here, so the users could still insult your name basically forever for everything you ever said or did. Basically you have a bad reputation should you try to get a job or join another forum in the future.
The second way is being erased (which also counts as a ban, as your email account and username will be banned if you are erased). If you are erased, then basically all your posts and records are erased. Everything about you will never be seen or known on here, except by other user's posts or by other users memories. This is also known as account suicide or in real life with clubs, club suicide. Because I never bothered trying that with clubs in the past and got banned from 10 of them, I have a very nasty reputation, and it has made it difficult for me to apply for a job or get into a good school (yes that is what really happens). Basically account suicide makes it so you don't receive that reputation at all, so never happens, and you aren't affected in the real world. If you get enough of a bad reputation, you might as well kill yourself in the real world because you are basically no longer functional (the Japanese do that all the time), because in the real world, you cannot school, get a job, or even get state support with a bad reputation. And it becomes easy for the cops to mistake you for a criminal and arrest you.
Actually there were a couple of users who hated me enough and agreed to get me banned before. And to this day they still hate me. And I am sure there are many more who would agree that the very best thing at this point is being erased.
I know I didn't belong in this world because middle school made that very clear to me. I did whatever I could hundreds of times to find a solution to that problem, but time after time, I fail at that.
I don't really want to talk about it too much, because I don't want anyone trying to get me into legal trouble like the last few clubs did.
I obviously don't belong on here either. While sometimes I may go out in public, work (but I work in solitary), or school (but I often do projects alone), often I will lock myself away in my house, even away from my own family members (why I spend time on the computer or on the video games). Because I know sometimes I have issues and even my own family cannot handle it. This is also why I don't want to get involved with any friendships of any kind.
Because I lock myself up in my own house, maybe it was just a mistake to get involved on here. Maybe I should just go back to the drawing board instead of being on here.