I wouldn't say I didn't try to attempt this while I was in middle school. That is just a very sensitive subject to bring up, and I try not to bring up some things I did in the past.
It is kind of fun to play games like this: http://www.adultswim.com/games/web/five-minutes-to-kill-yourself-reloaded What's your highest score? Mine is 2.5 minutes.
Hmm...interesting game. just played it for the first time and got 3:48:11 minutes. Its unrealistic but hey,not much to expect from a free flash game.
I have to be honest,there were definite times in the past when I felt that I wanted to end it all forever(maybe I'll go into detail at another time,but not now),I actually had a classmate in college who hanged himself in his room(one of the worst/most painful ways to end your life). We were never close,but by coincidence,it happened when I myself was beginning to feel it again. Fortunate circumstances however lead me away from that (had lady luck not been in my favor,I probably would have followed in his footsteps.) and here I am.
I can truthfully say that I'm glad to be alive today,because I was able to experience the wonders of Lucid Dreaming and Mary Jane,among others. While I do occasionally get the feels(it usually happens when I find myself with a problem I can't figure out and feel hopeless),they tend to be fleeting nowadays and with the help of some of my loving family members,things do go well. I also have a few dreams/goals to aim for now(I already spoke of it in our past discussion),and I've got my dream life to look forward to. so yeah,I'm glad to be alive today.