That was you falling victim to 'fear'. You'll need to get that solved eventually.
Remember, KNOW you're safe... and you will be. Don't "believe" it... *KNOW* it.

If you need to use a 'tool' in order to feel safe before, during or after you practice... then do so. Tools include stuff like casting a circle... using white light... saying a prayer... these are all "tools" which you use in order to focus your Intent towards a certain goal, such as "being safe".
