I started off with a dream journal, writing some dreams down but... (feel free to skip this part)
03.December.2012 (Monday Morning)
I am behind the building I used to live, and my grandma is in the lower apartment, but it isn’t really an apartment. It’s a school.
DREAM NOTES: Buildings that are something in reality take a different role in dreams.
05.December 2012 (Wednesday Morning)
I am driving a virtual car in a game on some sort of force feedback steering wheel that doesn’t really make sense, it’s kind of like made of wire and I’m holding it in reverse with the wire spun around cause that’s how the professionals are supposed to hold it, then I turn it around and I feel the steering wheel change the way it behaves, I feel it’s vibration and force in my hand as I go. The game is a training course, but it sorta feels like I’m driving the car in first person too when I’m playing, like I’m actually there in the car, then the instructor tells us it’s delayed for today.
- Objects that don’t make sense made of illogical shapes, acting abnormal like the wire steering wheel.
- Being in both third person and first person, in this case the game.
- My hands are busy holding the steering wheel so I couldn't focus on checking reality with my hands (brains way of protecting itself against my reality checks ?)
disappointed i hadn't succeeded even though i was trying really hard, losing my faith that it will ever happen to me plus some other real life issues came so i gave up for a while cause i wouldn't be able to dedicate enough focus on it, then one night...
09.December 2012 (Wednesday Morning) 5:00 AM
FINALLY LUCIDITY !!!!
I am in a room that has orange tinted mood and filled with people , like a club or something, suddenly out of nowhere I realize I am dreaming and I become happy and start dancing and singing “I am dreaming” around the room, then I continue around the room while trying to calm myself down so I don’t get overexcited and wake myself up and I notice really weird looks on my dream characters, they were all staring at me really weird, like appalled that I was lucid, then I notice Will Smith was dancing on a table so I grab his leg while dancing and singing with him, “I am dreaming, I am dreaming” then decide to do a few reality checks in front of a mirror, I look at my fingers and whoa, lots of them inter-weaved between each other about 8 of them, then I look in the mirror and my reflection was all wobbly like parts of my body were missing or the mirror was really broken, I notice these and say “haha, yes this is a dream, this is a dream” then...
I wake up, with a huge smile on my face thinking “Fuck Yeah” it finally happened.
DN: For the life of me I cannot remember the previous scenario, I know it’s there and I was dreaming something else before, but I can’t remember it and I also can’t remember how I became lucid, it's like a new scenario was created for me and i was awarded lucidity. Also do you think it’s possible this was a semi-lucid dream ? I mean I was pretty lucid and had full control of myself body and mind also my scenario was pretty clear although I didn’t spend enough time to clarify it a bit, actually stare and observe the details.
I write this down then i go back to sleep, waking up cause my alarm clock goes off at 7:30 AM, then i set it to snooze every 10 minutes having a different dream each time i go back to sleep, must have had about 10 that night, but i was too lazy to write all of them down then after a bunch of these dreams...
Second lucid dream, same night,
I am walking up some stairs in a hospital and all of a sudden I realize I’m dreaming, again for no reason, I look at my hand but it has only 5 clearly defined fingers though my hand was kinda glowing like bloom effect in a videogame, so I think to myself, damn my brain is getting devious, it made my hand show 5 proper fingers even though I knew for certain I was dreaming, then I wake up cause the alarm goes off.
DN: - again brain trying to protecting itself against my reality checks?
I do kind of have a theory of why it happened for me, in the break from trying to LD i was still looking up stuff on it saw a few episodes of Fringe related to dreams and this period kind of solidified my belief that i will dream because of the whole repetitive action theory. Same for piano, at first i didn't have any belief i will ever play with both hands and after enough practice it solidified in me and i could play with ease. The whole idea that if you obsess about something with enough passion it sticks in you and eventually becomes a reality, i started believing with certainty(without even realizing) i will LD because it would have been illogical not to happen when proper obsession was dedicated to it.
"If you truly believe in it, it will happen, 100% certain"